You will be very depressed during the dark night of the soul that usually follows an awakening but it's not the kind of depression that makes you want to actually kill yourself. It's the kind that makes you question why you're here and what it is you're here to do because life feels meaningless at the time.

You'll be depressed as in you know this place sucks and its not home but awakening makes you wise enough to know suicide is not an option.

When you awaken you know better to not attempt to kill yourself. Your soul will not allow you. Your higher self will always be there guiding your thoughts.

You'll know you're here for a purpose and you may be trying to find your purpose but how will suicide help you find your purpose?

Sure there may be the thought of how easy it'd be if it was all over but a truly awakened person will not actually attempt to do it.

If you're actually thinking about suicide then that's not an awakening. That's mental illness and you need to see a mental health specialist.

You're supposed to come out of your awakening transformed and victorious and not dead!

You gotta stay awake and alive. Good luck!