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Life and happiness
The Pressure to Be Happy
If you’re not happy now, happiness will be fleeting
Do you ever crave joy? When we were in the thick of the pandemic, like most people, I felt a dark cloud over the world. I was also under the darkness, and I had unhappiness and fear for companionship. I woke up every day wishing the dark cloud would lift. Some days I couldn’t see through it, and other days I could see through the darkness into the light above it. Those days there was a little joy and relief.
As a single woman who is okay with my fate of being alone at this point in my life, life was starting to feel so dry. The black cloud on some days would steal all the fun, and it was starting to take a toll on my emotional health. Although I’m okay being by myself, some days and nights got so lonely. I craved connection like most humans would. Happiness was missing in those days, buried deep inside of me.
I know happiness isn’t outside of me, so I didn’t go out looking for it. When I went looking for happiness, I went inside, but some days it felt out of reach. Piles and piles of other emotions were on top of happiness, I couldn’t access it. I would reach deep inside searching for it and some days I could almost feel it, I could almost touch it with my hands but I couldn’t seem to get a hold of it. But I…
