I don’t fit in. I’ve already made peace with that. I stopped trying to fit in. But that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt when you are shown just how much you don’t fit in. Knowing that I have social problems, I avoid group things like group chats and most things that have a lot of people involved. I’m naturally quiet and people things aren’t my strong suit. We all have weaknesses.
Sometimes people will force me to get involved in group things knowing I’m an introvert and to be seen as a nice person who doesn’t hate people, I…
Storytime
Have you ever felt too dirty to ask for help?
Perhaps because of your sins. The one you committed a very long time ago and swore to never talk of it again but still haunts your thoughts and tells you you don't deserve love and forgiveness? Or perhaps the little sins you said you’d never do again, but always break your promise?
Or the way you speak to your mother, making her sad and telling you you'll regret the way you treat her in her olden days? …
Regret like any other emotion serves a purpose
You Live and You Learn
I’m not one of those people who can proudly say they have no regrets. Nope. I made some bad choices in my early 20s and I regret some of the choices I made. Some things I could quickly forgive myself and let go of, but others I’ll live with for the rest of my life because I’m constantly reminded of them in the present day.
When I broke up with my ex, I regretted my relationship with him because of the things that took place. There were huge red flags in my face from the start, all of which I…
Bad is Black
Black cats, blacklist, black magic, black people, and more
Evil is Black
“Your shirt is evil! Your shirt is evil,” my little nephews and nieces kept yelling and pointing at my black shirt as soon as I walked in the room. They had worried looks on their faces.
“Uhm okay. What are you guys up to?” I asked as I walked towards them to see what the fuss was about. They were looking at a textbook with a color chart and the meaning of the colors. One meaning listed for black was evil.
From the look on their little faces, they were so surprised that we wear a color that’s evil. …
Life | Life Lessons
You learn a lot in three decades and still realize you know nothing at all
I just turned 31 and although I’m not where I thought I’d be by 30; I know I’m exactly where I need to be at 31.
Much of the first decade of my life is forgotten. I can only remember little bits and pieces. The second decade was full of experimenting with life. Life was simple then. It gave me everything I needed to be happy.
The third decade is when I left the nest, lost my way, and almost ruined my life stuck in places and situations that did not serve me. …
Meat and spirituality
It’s not about what you eat, but your intention towards it
What the Mind Focuses on Grows
Your belief that something can harm you will possibly be more harmful to your body than the thing itself. If you are truly spiritual, then you know that whatever you think is what is.
If you eat meat and you feel you are absorbing the pain and suffering of the animal, then you are absorbing its pain and suffering and you carry it as your own. …
Skinny lives matter
Plus a skinny girl feeling good about her body shouldn’t make you feel bad about yours
While it’s considered rude to comment on a fat person’s weight, most people take pleasure in pointing out how thin someone is. When I was around 10 or 11, I almost drank a whole bottle of Apetamin because I was so tired of people telling me how skinny I looked. I was fed up with people telling me I needed to put on some weight to look beautiful.
Apetamin is a weight gain vitamin syrup supplement that helps you gain weight by increasing your appetite.
That afternoon, I heard that my uncle was coming to town and I was so…
Spiritual Awakenings
Stage 2 — Thinking you know everything
Stage 1 — Learning Everything There Is to Learn
We experience this stage out of nowhere or due to a life crisis like a breakup, death, trauma, and other major life changes. This initial stage of the spiritual awakening leaves us feeling confused, unhappy, and lost. We experience a disconnection from the world and those around us. We look at the people around us and it feels like we no longer resonate with them. We may feel depressed as a result of this disconnect.
We don’t know what’s happening with us and the people around us can’t comprehend the transformation taking place within us and they assume we’ve finally…
Life lessons
Messes must sometimes happen for the lesson to be learned
It’s painful to look back on life and only see the mess that was made. Four years ago I laid in bed crying my eyes out because I felt I made a big mistake. I had a kid by a man I wanted nothing to do with after the relationship was over. I longed for the days I could leave a guy and they would never see or hear from me again. I couldn’t disappear because we shared a child together, and that made me feel stuck. I was angry! Being in my presence was a privilege I was reluctant…
THE HISTORY OF GODDESSES
She was worshipped as the goddess of knowledge, counsel, crafts, and excellence
In ancient mythology, Athena — the Olympian Goddess of wisdom, war, and crafts — is syncretized with Minerva, the Roman goddess of war. She was the daughter of Zeus and was perhaps the wisest, courageous, and most resourceful of the Olympian goddesses.
Zeus was married to Metis, the goddess of wisdom and counsel. Uranus (the god of the sky) and Gaia (the goddess of the earth) prophecized that Metis would bore two children and the boy child would overthrow and end his reign.
Zeus feared this prophecy, so he swallowed Metis whole — the same way Cronus (Zeus' father) swallowed…
