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2022: The Year I Gave Up Searching
There’s never a need to search for something that is already within you
In the course of human history, many have searched for God. They have looked for God in the stars. They have looked for God in the elements. They have looked for God within themselves. Since 2020, I have done the same. I have diligently sought after God in everything. I have sought after God’s own heart and felt great despair and frustration because I could never find him.
I had no intention of giving up my search, but 2022 taught me that God doesn’t need to be found in places or things. I could search high and low and never find him. I would search east and west and never catch a glimpse of God. I would only frustrate myself, thinking God was a lie.
2022 has taught me that I am not supposed to see God. I’m supposed to feel his spirit course through my veins.
God is not a lie. He’s here and there’s nowhere I will go to in spirit that I will not find God. And there’s nowhere I can go to get away from the Spirit of God.
“Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there…
